I just wanna quit

I WANNA QUIT! I don’t want to be strong anymore. I don’t wanna get up and put on this fake smile. I wanna quit!

I miss my son. I want him back. I am mad at the world today! I just wanna quit!

I am tired of hiding tears. I am tired of the ones closest to me not talking to me, asking if I am okay. I just wanna quit!

I miss his face, his voice, his laugh and most of all that look he was always giving me. I just wanna quit!

Why are the days getting harder? Why are the days getting longer? Why are the nights endless? I just wanna quit!

I am tired of being alone. I am tired of this broken heart. I just wanna quit!

I am tired of hurting. I am just tired. I just wanna quit!

But I won’t quit. I am now going to get up from here and finish the laundry, start dinner and go get the girls from school. Then I am going to get ready for church and put a smile on my face so no one sees the pain and walk out the door. Too many people need me for me to quit. Thank God for them or I really would quit!


4 thoughts on “I just wanna quit

  1. Tonya says:

    AMEN Sister! I feel that everyday. I’m tired of putting on that fake smile. I want my son back! But I know that while I am still breathing I will keep going some how.
    One day we will be together again. I’m praying for you.

  2. Mama P says:

    Yep, me too. BUT we know too many need us even as broken as we are. And we need each other. Nobody else understands us more. I am so sorry for your pain. All I can offer is a cyber hug and endless prayers for all of us and our loved ones who are grieving in their way, too. If there is anything more I can do let me know. I care and I understand.

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