I have this special little girl in my life. I have called her my Monkey from the time she was just a little bitty thing cooing at me. To say I love this little Monkey is an understatement. She has always been my best friend and just like one of my own children since the day I laid eyes on her. You know how you can just sense that there is something special about someone? Well, she has it. Whatever it is. Let me tell you what she taught me Monday.
It is no secret that lately I have been having a rough time in my journey of grief. I cry more and just have no desire to do a whole lot. I have tried to keep the tears and the sadness hidden from people, especially Monkey. See, she has been hit with double loss within a year. Her favorite cousin and her brother. That’s a lot for a six year old. Well, Monday I picked her up from school and greeted her with the usual I missed you! She looked at me and said, “Are you okay?” I answered yes and she called me out real quick. She said that I didn’t look it. I told her I was just missing Richie. And then this little Monkey set me straight. Here is what she told me.
“MumMum, God has plans for each person. He knows before we are ever born who our Mommies and Daddies are. He knows who our brothers and sisters are. He knows when we are going to be born and everything we will do for our whole lives. Everything we do, God knows before we do it. God also knows when we are going to die. He knows that before we are ever even born. He knew when Richie was going to die and how. He knew when Johnathan was going to die and how. He knew when my Mommie’s Momma was going to die and how. He knew I wouldn’t get to meet her until I get to heaven. If me and you get in a bad wreck right now and we live, if someone says “you are lucky you didn’t die”, they are wrong because God knew we weren’t supposed to. God knows what our life is for and nobody else. And that is why we have to live a good life while we have it and make him proud. So don’t be sad because Richie is gone, God had to have him back home like he did Johnathan.”
Now after hearing this, I was speechless and tears were flowing. This little girl who we are supposed to be teaching and guiding is the one teaching and guiding us! I asked her where she learned all this. She just looked at me and said, “A little from church and a little because it is what Jesus wanted me to know.” I did not feel the need to ask her if Jesus had told her directly or if she meant she had learned it somewhere. I think that is for her to cherish. But either way, this little girl taught me so much in her little speech to me. I have heard people and preachers say parts of this for over 10 months now, but coming from a 6 year old drove it into my heart.
Thank God for putting this little Monkey in my life!